Sunday, January 16, 2011

Will it work?

How does one justify spending lots of money on something that might, or might not work?

Would we buy a car if we had to give the dealership $12,000 for them just to say, "We MIGHT give you a new car?" Or, "You have a 5o to 60% chance of getting a new car after you give us all your money."

It seems so expensive for nothing better then 60% chance. A 60% chance of getting pregnant. Getting pregnant with Invetro Fertilization. But, if you look at our odds so far...60% is a whole lot better.

We have now been trying for almost 3 years, 34 months actually. And I am not at the point where I question, almost ever day, if we will ever get pregnant. Sure, over the last few years I have had my doubts. But I still thought it was something that would happen...eventually. But now I am not so sure.

I would love to be able to listen to all of those who say that it will happen. Just be patient. Don't stress about it. Its going to happen. You will get pregnant when the timing is right. So here is the thing about that....All of those things are easier said then done. For example: Just be patient. Really? I have been patient and where has it gotten me? No where with nothing. Don't stress about it. Again, really? Have you ever had a big test in school and got stressed out about it? We all do, so don't say no. Now go through that every single day for almost 3 years and then tell me, or someone else who is trying to get pregnant, not to stress about it. Better yet, go through what Jake and I are going through and then you can tell us not to stress about it.

And until then, until you go through all of these things...just be there for us. I feel like I have listened to everyone. Looked up as much information as possible on the internet. With no results. I just want everyone to stand beside us. Hug us when we are sad.

2 comments:

Esther said...

My heart brakes for you guys. I'm so sorry you are sad. :( Hug! Call me anytime. We're not that far away! Next time you need new shoes, you know who to call. :)

Unknown said...

Boy I sure don't know the answer to that one either! I love you!