Day 2

Well day 2 of my 'work out every day' thing is going...okay.

Yesterday was great, I felt good and very accomplished after working out last night. And today my legs are only a little bit sore. Last night before bed I received a shot of the hCG and so all day I was extremely tired and in a fog. As the day went on it didn't get any better.

For dinner we went to a new Chinese restaurant, well new to us. It was good. Very good but full of calories. Tons of calories actually. After dinner all I wanted to do was go home and go to sleep. These shots sure make me sleepy...ugh.

But anyway, with Jake's encouragement I got in my 2nd workout for the 2nd day in a row :O) It wasn't anything fantastic but still 20 min and even got a sweat going. Now its time to call it a night I'm afraid, I can hardly keep my eyes open.

Here's to day 3...

Day 1

Yesterday evening I was flipping through the stations and stopped on Biggest Loser. It happened to be a results show and the first time I had watched the show.

I found it absolutely amazing that these people can loose between 12 and 35 pounds a week! Yes, I said 35 POUNDS in ONE week! 35 pounds and 10% of their weight. Now I know that this is not normal, no where near normal. This person was well over 400 pounds to start with and was surrounded by specialists the entire week.

I would love to lose some weight, about 30 pounds actually. So, my goal is to make it one week of working out every day. And then go from there when I complete the first week...and I will complete the first week.

Today, day 1 was a lower body workout with Wii Biggest Loser and about an hour of Just Dance. Biggest Loser kicked my butt for over 30min and then actually loved the whole thing. With Jake being gone at some basketball thing I figured some Just Dance wouldn't hurt. I ended up doing almost an hour of Just Dance and am now exhausted!

I am very proud of my scores...

Here's to day 2!

Boo babies

We are now on our 30th month of trying to conceive. It has been a long and stressful journey. And I'm sure before it is over it will get even worse. It seems that I get my hopes up every month even knowing that it isn't the month. I'm not sure how or what, but its just a feeling I get that its not going to happen that month.

But...It is going to happen. This past week I went to visit Dr. B at Bellingham IFV twice. Everything looks good this month. Actually, it looks GREAT. I am ovulating on BOTH sides this month. Yes, that's right. One on the left and one on the right. I'm still trying not to get my hopes up tooo much, being that the last 30 months have all ended in the same way.

As I was getting ready to leave the receptionist stopped me. She gave me a little plastic bat and ghost. She said she hopes we have a "Boo Baby" being that we would find out in October its perfect. So far my Boo babies have gone every where with me. The are going to be our good luck charms, I just know it. So here's to another month, hope it is successful!! Aren't they cute :O)

On another note, I was finally able to tell my mother about our fertility problems. It was not as hard as I thought it would be. I'm sure now that she has really know for a long time. I was afraid it would be, I don't know, almost letting her down a little. And that there would be a lot of emotions and such. But she was very understanding, as I knew she would be. And she didn't get all emotional on me, and that is good being I had just gotten a shot of hCG and would have started just bawling. I am thankful I was able to tell her, now I can talk to her when and if it doesn't work this month. I love my mommy!!

3 months and 1 day

3 months and 1 day until CHRISTMAS!

Yes, I did it. I said Christmas in September. It is by far my favorite time of year and I can not wait for it to be here. I was watching an episode of Bones on netflix wii the other day. It was a Christmas episode, the one where Booth gets a tree for Bones and her family. Anyway, it made me wonder if I could convince Jake to put the tree up really early this year. Maybe not now but before Thanksgiving. But after talking to him about Christmas today in the shower I don't think that is possible.

Thinking about Christmas makes me very happy. Its a time for love. Its a time for being thankful. Its a time for relaxing, despite what some people think. Its a time for magic.

One of my favorite memories from when I was little is sitting in the living room with all the lights in the house off except the Christmas tree. Just sitting there, usually eating some cookies my mom and I had just decorated. And definitely listening to Christmas music. There is nothing better, in my opinion, then sitting with the ones you love around a Christmas tree.

So I guess today I am starting my count down to Christmas. 3 months and 1 day to go!

Honey do list

We bought our house a little over a year ago. Did tons of work to it before moving in and it seems the "joys" of home ownership are never-ending. When we moved in, one of the first things I did was start a :Things 4 the House: list. Mostly containing things to get for around the house like a digital thermostat and tables clothes. But some are a little bigger. Like paint the deck, trim the trees, build and plant a garden.

As I was cleaning today I found the list and decided there need to be a lot more things added to it. So, here is my continued list from August 2009:

• Stove pan covers = DONE
• Light fixtures (halls, bedrooms, and kitchen) =Kitchen DONE
• New locks for doors
• Digital thermostat = DONE
• Drawers for under washer & dryer
• Trim trees = DONE once
• Decorative shelves = 2 up, would like more
• Table cloths for both tables = dinning room table covered
• Cover for scrapbook stuff
• Kitchen table = DONE
• Material boxes for scrapbook stuff =DONE
• Build raised garden bed =DONE
• Seeds for garden =DONE
• Entertainment center =DONE
• DVD shelves = DONE
• Address Book =DONE
• Table for entryway = DONE, for Jake's 28th bday
• Table by middle bedroom door (small, for flowers or a pic)
• Nice hooks for towels on bathroom doors = DONE
• Cabinet to go above toilet in bathrooms = DONE, in master bathroom only
• Stain the deck = DONE
• Remove and rebuild lattice (sp?) work = taken down, posts painted, tops of posts up
• Flooring for kitchen and bathrooms
• Round mirrors to put on brown wall in dinning room
• Build deck by front door
• Flowers/bushes for under front window
• Tile for back splash in kitchen and bathrooms (replace wood back splash)
• Bigger dresser for my clothes
• Paint outside of house
• "Welcome" sticker for front door
• New fixtures for both bathtubs
• Deeper bathtub in master bath (I hate being 1/2 covered when in the bath)
• Build another raised garden bed for zucchini and squash
• Shed in back yard
• Replace fence (w/2 gates)

I'm sure the list will only get longer and longer as more time passes. I'm excited to see what our next project will be. And maybe we will be able to talk my dad and Jake's dad into visiting us and helping with a project or two...I will even cook :O)

Test Results

Just over a week ago I took the college placement test at Skagit Valley Community College. That whole day I was nervous, scared, with an upset tummy. I got off work at 5:30 and had a whole hour until I had to be at the college for the test so I went home to change out of my work clothes. I actually thought about skipping the test and staying home.

But I didn't. I took the test :O) And after, I am very happy with my results. Especially being it has been over 10 years since I did anything school related.

I scored a 97 on the writing portion, completing every question. For writing I can take either English 101 or 170, not really sure what the difference is but still exciting.

For reading I scored 88 but didn't get to each question. So Reading 101, if it is required, is where I will be.

Now for math on the other hand...didn't go as well as the others. For pre-algebra I got 82, and for Algebra I only got 18. I think I only got into the 4th or 5th algebra question. So Math 97 it it. Oh well, I'm still proud of the results.

Now all I have to do is get a hold of an advisor...and that is nearly impossible. But thats what I get for waiting so long.

Zucchini makin' machine

This spring I planted my first garden. I'm very excited that my garden was very productive. But I'm not so excited about ALL fruits and veggies I have to do something with. Its great to have A head of cabbage, A zucchini, A squash, and so on and so on. But when you have 5 heads of cabbage, at least 5 very large zucchini, endless amounts of green peppers, tons of squash, and carrots all over the place.

So, in an attempt to use up some of the very large zucchini that I had in my fridge I made cookies and bread. 2 batches of cookies actually. And the crazy thing is I only used up ONE HALF of a zucchini! One half! But the cookies and bread are amazingly good :O)

Now all I have to do is figure out what to do with the other 2 1/2 zucchini :O)

Breakdown

This has been a strange day, and that might just be an understatement.

Sleeping in until 9:30 was such a nice change to waking up at 7am in order to get up and go to work. I wasn't even woken up by Bella or Milo who usually decided on Saturdays its a good idea to wake up and play at 6 in the morning. Ugh. But thank goodness this didn't happen today. Thank goodness!

After getting up I got to snuggle on the couch with Jake and watch the first of many football games. What a great way to start a Saturday if I do say so myself. But it didn't stay that good all day. Yes, I got to watch the Ugly Truth while Jake went to the gym. And then the last episode of Bones from the first season. And yes, another movie, Julie & Julia before Jake got home. But I was so tired I could hardly stay awake. The hCG shots are making me so tired. So tired its not even funny. Most of the time I'm not fully awake until after 1pm, and some times it's even later.

They are also making me very emotional. This afternoon Jake and I took a shower together like always. It started out normal...getting our hair wet, using shampoo, putting conditioner in. And then I farted...yep, I am admitting that online. Jake thought it was stinky and decided to get out. And then he uses MY towel. The same towel I have been using all week long. Jake said he had no idea who's towel was who's and just grabbed one off the door.

Neither the telling me my fart was smelly or using my towel should have meant anything. But...that's not the case. As soon as I yelled at Jake for using my towel I started to cry. Just a little at first but it got worse. After tuning off the water and getting the other towel I started sobbing. Jake heard me, came back into the bathroom to see if I was ok. I got so upset over absolutely nothing. And even though it was nothing I couldn't stop crying!

While I was sobbing I knew it was stupid but I couldn't stop. Is this how I am going to be when we do actually get pregnant? Or is it going to be worse? Ugh. I wish I was this tired and this emotional for a reason...a good reason. I'm so done with all these shots. I'm so done.

We wont know if this month worked for another week and a 1/2 or so. But I'm so ready for pregnancy. I'm tired of waiting. And not looking forward to another breakdown that is going to happen no matter what.