Enquirer

Jake and were standing in line at Fred meyer a few days ago. While I wait for the lady in front of us to be done, I naturally look around. This is one of the magazines I see. 

Here's the thing...WHO CARES?!? Why is the weight of an actress important? Fat. Thin. Big boobs. No boobs. And so on. Why is this something the public cares about? 

Normally I would just look right past something like this. But that day, I just couldn't. I decided I didn't want to wear my low cut swimsuit from last year. 

Mistake. Big mistake. 

I had tried on suit after suit. A size 14 was to small. It has been no secret that over the past year I have struggled to lose weight. It took 5 months to lose 10 pounds. That's less then 1 pound a week. Can we say frustrating? 

Ok, back to the picture. Who says a woman has to be skinny? The media, that's who. We see skinny women all over, magazines, advertisements, movies, tv shows, and so on. 

I remember watching the movie Pitch Perfect wondering why it was ok to have a charecter named "Fat Amy". I also remember being sadded at her response to why she called herself that. It was something to the effects of "You are just going to call me fat behind my back..." 

It's true. It's totally true. We, especially us women, judge others. But I think we judge ourselves more harshly then we do other women. And it's all because of things like this magazine cover. 

I am not looking forward to the day one of my girls comes home crying because another little girl made fun of her...but I know it will happen. It always happens. I just hope I can raise my girls to not judge based on weight, or skin color, or religios beliefs, or every other thing we are all judged on. 

I hope my girls grow up to love themselves as well. I struggle with weight, but I try to eat healthy and excersise. I don't want them to grow up thinking those are the only things that are important. It's about being happy with yourself. Being healthy. Who you are inside. NOT how much you weigh. 

Oh am I in trouble!

Little Miss Hailey has always been our little daredevil. Not afraid of anything, except the monster at the end of the book. The first time in the water for the summer she chargers right in. She tries to push the limits all the time. Going one step further after we told her she was far enough away. We are constantly telling Miss Hailey to be careful. 

Miss Hannah on the other hand is the complete opposite. She isn't sure about shadows when walking down the driveway. Always investigates new textures before touching them with her feet. When climbing off the toys at Carls Jr on the way over to the lake, her feet didn't touch the floor (by maybe an inch) making her upset and scared to get down. She earned the name Hesitant Hannah, and that name has suited her...

Until today. 

 We always though Hailey would be the first one to climb out of the crib. For the last few days she has even been working in it when I go to get he girls out of bed after nap. I've been getting Hailey out of bed first so she doesn't figure out how to climb out on her own. 

Apparently I was wrong. It wasn't our adventurous Hailey but our cautious Hannah who crawled out of the crib first. And of course, in true twin fashion, Hailey climbs out as soon as I close the door. 

Now that I'm putting pen to paper so to speak, it shouldn't surprise me that Hannah was the first at this. Hannah has always tried so hard to do things. Practicing and practicing until he gets it right. She was the first of our girls to sit, and stand, first to crawl and walk. It might have taken her 2 weeks to master standing but she was still the first to stand. 

Hailey just watched and stood up when she was ready. There isn't much practicing for Hailey, she just does it. 

Well, now this just opens a new can of worms for me this summer! Like I said, I'm in trouble! 

At least I can enjoy this beautiful weather between going down to check on the girls.