The best Mom and Grandmother ever

I'm pretty sure that says it all. I have always know, even if at times I wouldn't admit it, that my mom was amazing. She was there for both my brother and I from the day we were born. And now, now that I have children of my own, it is even more apparent to me how amazing she is.

She has been here. In Burlington. Living with us. Cooking for us. Cleaning for us. Doing laundry for us. Changing diapers for us. Cleaning up spit-up for us. Making bottles for us. Feeding for us. Shopping for us. This list could go on and on and on. From the day the girls were born she was there for us.

I am so grateful for her and everything she has done for us over the past 8 weeks. (Yes, I can't believe Hannah and Hailey are already 8 weeks and 3 days old.) I am really not sure what I would do without all her help and knowledge.

Tonight, she made her nightly phone call to my dad who is back in Spokane/Coeur d'Alene. And after I asked her how he was doing. I think my dad is getting really tired of eating out, alone. He is also working on the kitchen at the lake and I think he is just getting tired. Tired of all the work he has to do, alone. It makes me sad to think that because we live so far away, with my mom being over here to help he is all alone. It actually makes me very sad. It breaks my heart.

From the tone of my mom's voice when she was talking about dad, I really can't tell if she wants to stay any more. I mean, I know she wants to help me with the girls. But...at the same time I am pretty sure she wants to be home.

I don't know what to do. Do I not say anything? Or do I ask her if she wants to go home? Do I lie and tell her we don't need her here any more so she will go home?

I'm really not sure what we are going to do when she does go home. Even if it is 2 months, after basketball. At least then Jake will not be working such long days and will be able to help with the middle of the night feedings. My fingers are crossed the girls will be sleeping longer at night than they are now, but I'm not sure they will be. But if my mom leaves before basketball season is over, besides the night feedings, I will be alone for 13hours some days with the girls.

I knew being a parent wasn't going to be easy. Especially with twins. And I don't want my mom to feel like she has to stay. Especially if she doesn't want to.

Maybe she could go home to Spokane/Coeur d'Alene for a week or so "vacation" and then come back and help me. That might work. Kinda ease me into being alone all day every day, and having to get up by myself to feed both girls.

Either way, what ever happens, she is an amazing mom and an even more amazing Grandmother! I can't imagine day to day without you. Love you mom!