The news you have all been waiting for...

It absolutely kills me that I have to keep this post un-posted, if you will, for a while. At this point I am not sure how long it will be before I can post this. I guess it is more up to Jake then me. If it were up to me this would have been posted 2 weeks ago.

So here it is...

Jake and I are expecting a little baby (or 2) on December 19th 2011!!!

We found out on April 12th, two days after my birthday. It was the perfect late birthday gift ever! But it was quite the experience. This whole time I knew, I absolutely knew this was going to work. There was no doubt in my mind. Even when people asked what we were going to do if it didn't work I couldn't answerer them. I had no idea how to. In my mind there just was a reason to think about that.

That is up until Monday the 11th of April. I think it was lunch time when it hit me. The whole thing kind of walked up to me and punched me in the face. All I could think was "Holy cow. Tomorrow we find out. Tomorrow we will know if it worked or not. Tomorrow we will get an answer...positive or negative." And at that point I started to doubt the whole thing. I started to wonder what we would do when we got the phone call from the doctor telling us it didn't work. How was I going to handle it.

So Tuesday morning I had to get up really early in order to get to the doctors office a little after 8am to get my blood drawn. I had so many friends send me messages on facebook and txt messages on the drive up, it helped a little. But I was still crazy worried and convinced at that point it was going to be negative. When I walked into the doctors office Karen greeted me like normal, as friendly as one could be, and I almost burst out into tears.

Needles to say I made it through the blood draw with out another break down. I even made it back to work and through the morning without worrying tooo much. But when lunch rolled around my tummy was in knots. Absolute knots. I had to call my best friend Ami to talk me into making the phone call. Unfortunately she didn't answerer the phone so I had to call the doctor cold turkey.

Nina picked up the phone and said, "How do you feel about December 19th as a due date?" At that point I lost it. Absolutely lost it. I'm not sure if Nina said anything else over the next few minuets or not. I wasn't really paying attention. I do know I kept asking if she was sure. When I finally got it all together enough to listen to her she said that I was DEFINITELY pregnant. She told me to take it easy and they needed to see me again on Thursday, 2 days later, to make sure that my hormone levels were increasing like they should. I hung up the phone with her and cried.

While I was talking to Nina, Ami had called. As soon as I could I called her back, knowing that Jake wasn't on lunch yet and there was no point calling him yet. I had to tell someone. When Ami picked up the phone all I could do was cry. I know at first she thought it was negative...until I told her were were due on December 19th. Pretty sure she was jumping up and down in her car. She probably looked pretty funny to all of those she was driving past on her way back to work. You could say she was a LITTLE excited for us :O) I am so glad I could tell her!

We are beyond excited! There are not enough words to explain how excited we are to be pregnant and having a baby. Boy or girl. One or two. We really don't care. We just want them to be happy and healthy with 10 fingers and 10 toes.